Life is Difficult
This is a great truth, one of the greatest truths. It is a great truth because once we truly see this truth, we transcend it.
Once we truly know that life is difficult-once we truly understand and accept it-then life is no longer difficult. Because once it is accepted, the fact that life is difficult no longer matters.
M. Scott Peck – The Road Less Travelled
In truth it was a bit of a shock to finally land here in Australia. I left Bali with a vision. My vision was to do what I love and to do it well. And I wanted to tell to the world about the amazing, transforming power of the breath. My Breathwork Tour was my way of connecting with people and stepping into my new life and at the same time learning what I can achieve and what works.
It was after I arrived here that it hit me. I realised that I had no idea how I was going to make it work. I had told the whole world how I was going to go out and follow the dream. But I was in a country I hardly knew. I had only a few contacts. I was looking for venues for breathwork in cities that I was not familiar with at all. And there was so much for me to learn. How to do social media, how to advertise, how to blog, how to ask for help, how to just show up. And I fiercely, passionately wanted my new life to graciously unfold rather than force it to happen.
This can really scary and overwhelming place to be in. There were times when I thought I must be crazy to do this and I wonder how did I end up here. I had many fears – fear of failure in a very public way, fear of running out of money, fear of ending up at the end of this journey not being any farther on than I was at the beginning. And the niggling fear at the back of my mind that I just wouldn’t be able to rise to the challenge. I had to work hard to stop myself from going into overdrive and giving into a sense of urgency and panic.
Life is difficult. These words are the opening lines of the book A Road Less Travelled, (by M. Scott. Peck) which I read many years ago. I love the wisdom of these words. Once we understand that we are supposed to have challenges in our life and that they are there for our benefit, funnily they becomes easier. The key is understanding the difference between thinking life should be easy and thinking life can be easy. I make it easy by allowing it to be exactly the way it is. I acknowledge my fears and I feel them. I allow myself to fail. I don’t pretend that I have it all under control. And I do it anyway.
There were two things that helped more than anything else. The first was time. For the first few weeks I stayed with my sister by the beach in Coffs Harbour. It gave me time to reflect and time to feel. I spent time with my niece and nephew and went for inspiring walks on the beautiful beaches here. The second through Breathwork. Breathing into anything allows me to feel it, experience it and witness it flowing through.
When the time came to go to Brisbane for my Breathworks I was ready. Despite my fears, everything fell into place beautifully. I was welcomed and supported in so many ways and what unfolded there was a flow of community, synchronicity, sharing and fun. The fact that I actually stopped myself from madly trying to ‘make Brisbane brilliant’ is what allowed it be great.
I am off to Melbourne next and I feel like I am facing a new set of challenges. I know a few people who have already been fantastic in helping me to promote my breathworks there and in offering accommodation. But I don’t know how it will turn out. I keep wondering if I have done enough. So I’m back to being scared and excited again and to renewing my commitment to be present to it all.
But here’s the question. Do I really want it to be any other way? Uncertainty, confusion and the need to adapt will always be part of any new experience. My heart will always beat a little faster when I step outside my comfort zone and risk something new. But how could I ever reach my goals if I didn’t have to lean into them. So rather than wishing them to be easy, I wish to become better at embracing them. I wish for the grace to accept, the wisdom to be discerning and the skills to grow.
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